Forgiveness

So I've been thinking about forgiveness lately. Last week I had a great talk with a friend from the CSC that gave me a whole new way of understanding this word. When we forgive a person that we love, we do so that eventually we will look at them as the friends we love and not as the person who hurt us. When we ask for forgiveness we are asking a person we love to look at us as a friend they love, not as the person who hurt us. Does that make sense? It's all about trust and unconditional love. Forgive to make relationships stronger. Not to forget hurt, but to make us stronger persons, to learn. There are so many other things in my mind about this.. and the thoughts are not very organized... but i feel like i can see forgiveness through a different window now... i don’t understand everything, but i have some thoughts that i need to put together and make my own... and then a process of reconciliation with myself and my friends that will hopefully continue forever... this may not make sense to you but if you want to talk about it more i'm always here to do so. talking to people helps me a lot. and writing too.

Another thing i realized is that the same word may have a different meaning to me in spanish and english. im talking about the meaning we give words through experience.... it's very weird.

Anyway, life is good in general. Many projects for this semester and hard classes. I guess I will write more about everything going on as the semester develops... but it's going by so quickly... it's october already... and 51 degrees cold!!!! jeje

Oh! I went to Chicago for the first time about two weeks ago for Dave Bday (and to see Isa!). It's a beautiful city. Everything I expected and more. Can't way to go back next weekend. Yup... I'm going back... all expenses paid by Trio. =)

I finished my first job application last Thursday. I'm applying for an IT consultant position at Philips medical systems. I'm doing it more for the experience... although it is a really good opportunity and i wouldn't mind getting the job... i know the odds are low... but it's ok to dream, right? the job is in madison. i know. what is a puerto rican girl looking for in madison? but it's is a very weird exciting feeling to be ready to go out there and start a new life. im very happy.

ps. i love my friends. a lot. and i miss them too.

bunch of random stuff and harry potter!

my b-day...
I'm 21 now! yey! not very exciting here though... but i had a good time.. had dinner with the fam and close friends at hard rock... but then it became like a bar with too many people i know i felt i was in highschool again... so i left... i came home to read harry potter..

on harry...
i finished the 6 books in 20 days... not bad... i'm not going to talk a lot about this though 'cause you'll think i'm a freak... i'm a little obsessed with it.. i have an imaginary wand: dragon heartstring, ash, 7 inches... got i from ollivander's... and i'm even enrolled at hogwarts online... look!

be sorted @ nimbo.net

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (Year 6) spoiler!
what are your thoughts on the note harry found in the horcrux... who do you think is RAB? I think it is Regulus Alphard Black, Sirius' brother... the letter was addressed to the dark lord so i must have been a death eater.. and the found a locket in sirius house when the were cleaning (HP4, OoTP). But then again.... the book says no one could have done that alone.. Dumbledore himself said it to harry.

on a more serious note...
what do you think is easier? to ask for forgiveness or to forgive? maybe it's because it is so hard to ask for forgiveness that you rarely get asked to forgive someone... at least that's how i feel...(does that make sense?) i had an argument with my brother the other night... it was our first argument in about a year and it was pretty big and in a somewhat public place... we fought about who was going to stay with the car that night... anyway.. it was pretty bad and i was very and i didn't talk to him the next day.. i stayed in my room reading harry potter (big surprise!). But at night he came into my room and asked me to forgive him... it was so simple to say ok... i strongly felt i was right the night before and he was wrong, i was offended and all that... and i knew it must have been pretty hard for him to just come into my room and ask for forgiveness.. but i didn't answer.. i just kept reading and ignored him until i got tired of him just staring at me and waiting for an answered.. that's when i asked him, not very politely to leave my room. Now, i was the one who was wrong.. but i didn't care.. i am a very proud person and i was hurting. i felt really weird feeling afterwards... i mean.. i usually forgive people with time.. i don't need to be asked.. i just forgive.. i dont usually hold resentment against other people.. i think... that's my thought... what do you think??